IT'S A....

So today we had our ultrasound and it was so wonderful to see a glimpse of our newest little peanut.  When the doctor walked in the room, the first thing she asked us was if this was our first baby.  It's always funny when we say "no, it's actually our fourth."  She said we look too young to have 4 kids, so instantly we liked her :)!

She was very thorough while looking at the baby and it was so reassuring to hear her say that everything looked healthy and normal.  Of course she asked us if we wanted to know the sex and of course we said yes.  

But first, the pictures :)

This last picture is of the babies little feet.  I can't even wait to touch them, tickle them and kiss them!

So, will this be another Colbert

BOY???

Or, another Colbert

GIRL???

O.k.  So that's enough waiting :)

It's a

BOY!!!!

We are so thankful for this new little guy that will be joining our family this winter.  Now onto choosing a name....  It's a good thing we have 22 weeks to pick one :)

DreamNight at the Zoo

This past Friday evening, we had the opportunity to go to the Cleveland Zoo for an evening that was just for children with chronic illnesses, disabilities and their families.  It was a great night and they made it so special for these kids.  As we walked in, it was hard for me to hold back the tears as I was amazed at the work that went into preparing this night especially for families like ours who normally have to steer clear of the zoo and places like these due to the big crowds.  The whole night was free and the people were so friendly and accommodating.  They had all the ice cream carts and cotton candy spots open and the kids (and us) could get whatever we wanted for free.  The Dinosaur exhibit, bird feeding, camel rides and train rides were also free.  There were many volunteers around the park doing face painting, crafts, balloon creations, and up close animal encounters.  There were even costumed characters walking around and getting pictures with the kids.    Abbey loved seeing Cinderella and even got her picture taken with her.  She usually likes to keep a pretty safe distance from costumed things, but she was o.k. with the princesses.  Jacob couldn't stop talking about the dinosaurs the whole night and we all enjoyed feeding the birds.  It has been really awesome to see the special things that these kids can be a part of in the midst of what they have to go through.  

And along these same lines, Make a Wish called us the other day to set up a time to come to our home and talk to Abbey about her wish.  More details to come on that, but let's just say she will be able to get her picture taken with all the princesses :)  We also got a call today about an opportunity that Abbey will have to play Kick Ball this summer with the Cleveland Indians at Progressive Field to promote an awesome fundraiser for childhood cancers.  More to come on that too :)

Abbey continues to feel great.  Tonight we went to church again and she even went into her class.  There were only a few other kids in there and she really wanted to go in. She was beaming when we picked her up and I think she is loving feeling like a normal kid again.  

Not only is she feeling great, but she looks so healthy.  Her little eyebrows and eyelashes have completely come back in.  It's amazing how fast that has happened and her eyes look more beautiful to me than ever. The hair on her head too is starting to really come in.  Although it has a long way to go, not a day goes by that we don't talk about being able to put it in a pony tail again soon :)

And a quick baby update.... this Monday is our ultrasound so we are very excited to get a peek at this little one and hopefully be able to find out if we will have 3 boys or if Abbey will have a baby sister.  Any guesses??  And if you don't mind, could you please pray that this baby would look healthy and perfect?... Thanks :)  

And one more thing... please keep friends of ours, the Gablers in your prayers as their little boy who is almost two will be undergoing some testing this Monday.  Thanks so much!  

Oh Happy Day

We have much to be happy about!  Listen to our new song that we just added to hear about the happiest day ever.  And also we have had many happy days here lately that we will share. Saturday was especially special for our family, but I will get you up to date on things before I explain...

Last Friday was our clinic day to see if Abbey was ready to start maintenance.  Her ANC needed to be at 750 to begin and it was over 2,000!  We were so happy to see that her body had recovered from Delayed Intensification, that her immune system was stronger and that she was ready to continue on.

The day went as good as it possibly could.  Her sedation time was scheduled for 1:00p.m. so we thought it was going to be a very long morning since she couldn't eat. Buddy and Bev who is a puppet and his owner came in our room for about an hour and did crafts and games with Abbey.  She loved it and it helped make the time go faster as she got her chemo and we waited for her sedation time slot.  She never asked to eat even one time so it was a huge relief that it wasn't a rough, long morning for her.  She was sedated early and her procedure was done even before one o'clock.  They're usually running late, so it was so nice to be done early.  

While we were in clinic, after seeing her numbers, the doctors told us that the time has come for us to start getting our lives back to normal as much as possible.  For us to start taking her out some since her immune system was stronger now.  Although she will still be getting oral chemo, and chemo monthly at the clinic, she will not be getting hit so hard and her body should overall be stronger and less susceptible to illness.  We were overjoyed to hear those words and to know that we could start venturing out some and doing more normal things as a family.  

You probably know this from past posts, but our church is a very important part of our lives and we had not been to church as a family in 8 months.  Jim and I would go as much as possible with Jacob (we would keep Micah home too because we didn't want him bringing any sicknesses home), but we hadn't walked through the doors of our church as a complete family in so long and it was always so hard to go, having to leave our Abbey and Micah at home.  Well Saturday evening (for the Saturday service... a new thing at our church) for the first time since before Abbey got sick, we ALL  went to church together.

Here we are walking in together and it felt so good to have Abbey there!  She is a living testimony of God's goodness and faithfulness to us and to see how far she has come is an amazing thing.  God has used this little girl in many, many ways and to be able to show our church her smile and bright eyes after all she's been through was a wonderful thing!  God has been so real as we've seen His hand so intimately involved in our lives and we truly can say that our love for Him is stronger as we've gone through this.  This picture just makes me smile.  As we walk hand in hand with smiles on our faces, we know that He is carrying our family in His hands and for that reason alone, we can smile and find joy through this trial.  

The service was amazing and at the beginning Pastor Jason talked about how far we've come and how special it is to have her back in church.  We then all prayed for her together and it was very moving.  We are forever thankful to our Pastor and church family for their love and support as we've gone through this.  And the amazing thing is that it didn't just happen for a couple weeks or a month, but they have walked with us since day 1 and continue to be right by our side each step of the way.  

She is doing wonderfully with all her oral medications at home and she has been feeling great and just enjoying being three.  This morning she was calling me from her bedroom with an urgency in her voice and when I got in her room she was sitting at her vanity, looking at herself in the mirror and she said "Mommy!  My hair is starting to come back!"  She's a special little peanut and we are so thankful to be her parents.  

So far as a family we've gotten to go to a couple of Jacob's t-ball games, out to dinner, to a parade, to our friends house for a cookout and to church.  Abbey is loving getting out and you'd never know she's been cooped up in our house for 8 months.  I was concerned to see how she'd handle going from just seeing our family and doctors and nurses to getting back into being with other kids and being around more people.  She didn't skip a beat and seems to be handling yet another "change" with ease.  She's still our shy girl who likes to bury her head in my shoulder when she feels overwhelmed, but overall I feel like she's the same little girl that she was 8 months ago and we look forward to a fun summer as a family as we get to have some normalcy back to our lives.

And a huge thank you to Keri for taking pictures on Saturday :)  They will be cherished forever as we will be able to look at these special memories for years to come!  I will put a link to all the pictures that she took that evening soon.....

Thanks once again for continuing to follow our journey :)  Blessings to you! 

Relay For Life

What is Relay for Life?

Relay for Life brings together many people around the world to celebrate the lives of those who are currently battling cancer or have battled cancer, remember loved ones lost, and empower individuals and communities to fight back against this disease. Relay brings people together to raise much-needed funds and awareness. No matter who you are, there's a place for you at Relay.

We will be participating in the Twinsburg/Macedonia Events which will be held from June 5th - 6th at Twinsburg High School (Twinsburg Tiger Stadium). Events will begin at 6:00 p.m. on June 5th and go through June 6th, ending at 1:00 p.m. We are on a team from our church that is called "Walk by Grace". Below is a link where you can find out more information about our team...

Please Come and...

* Celebrate the lives of people who are battling (our sweet Abbey) or have battled cancer.

* Remember loved ones lost to the disease.

* Fight back. Most of us have been touched by cancer in some way and Relay is a way that we can come together and raise money to work to find a cure for this awful disease.

At 6:00 there will be a survivor lap where all people who are battling cancer or have beat this disease will take a lap around the track. We would love for as many of you to be there as possible as we take this emotional lap with our Abbey. We are in the fight of our lives as we have walked this journey together as a family and we have been loved and supported in so many ways. We would love to see many faces that we know as we do this lap with our precious survivor.

On Friday evening (9:00p.m.), when the sun goes down, hundreds, sometimes thousands of luminaria light the way under the stars and a moment of silence falls during a moving ceremony. Luminaria are glowing bags that appear to be simply paper sacks filled with sand and candles, but every bag represents a life that has or is battling cancer. The luminaria ceremony is one of the most emotional moments at Relay. It is a time to remember those lost to cancer, support those fighting cancer, and rejoice with those who have fought and won. If you would like to buy a luminaria there placed in memory of someone, in honor of someone still fighting or in special recognition of someone who has beaten the disease, you will be able to that the evening of the event (or you can do it below...). Although it is late, we are going to be there with Jacob and Abbey to experience this time together as a family (minus Micah :). I know that if we plan on staying without Abbey, we will be longing to hold her through the ceremony.

If you'd like to join our team, make a donation to our team, or buy a luminaria in advance for someone, please go to this link Relay for Life/Twinsburg This will take you directly to our team "Walk by Grace". We look forward to seeing many of you there and thank you in advance for making a difference in the lives of people with cancer. Together, we can make a difference!

If you have ANY questions, please feel free to contact us at jsjacolbert@sbcglobal.net. All are welcome to come be a part of this evening and whether we know you or not, we would feel honored for you to be there with us. If you are from Western Reserve and would like to join our team or find out more information, there will be a table set up for the next two weeks and we will be there to answer your questions. Judy and Mark Borlin and Bill and Heidi Watson have been doing Relay for years and know all the ins and outs of the weekend so please feel free to contact them for questions as well.

Thank you for your continued love and support!

Update

Last Friday we went for Abbey to start maintenance, but when we got there we learned that her numbers were too low to start.  It is very normal for kids not to be ready since their bodies get hit so hard during Delayed Intensification and sometimes their bodies just need more time to recover.  Her platelets were well above ready and are in normal range, but her ANC which needs to be 750 to start was at 700.  So we go back this Friday to see where her numbers are and are praying that they are super high by then so she can start this first round of maintenance strong.  

She has been feeling great though!  Last Saturday we all went to Jacob's first t-ball game and it was so nice to be able to go as a family.  Jacob was adorable (all the boys were) and seeing him out there made us smile :)  It was raining on and off the whole game and we were so surprised how tough all these 5 & 6 year old boys were to tough it out and play through the cold rain.  Jim and I snuggled up with Abbey and Micah under umbrellas and we just thoroughly enjoyed our time.  I also got out to church Saturday night (Jim was working overtime), which was such a blessing.   Friends of ours watched the kids (thanks Borlins!).  Yesterday I got to hear our baby's heartbeat beating away inside of me.  That's something that never gets old and I could listen to it all day.  I will be having my ultrasound in two week so we are looking forward to that!

Things are seeming more normal as Abbey has been consistently feeling good.  We so look forward to being able to take her to church and out a little more.  A friend of mine from church called today who is also a wonderful photographer and she was asking when we will be bringing Abbey back to church.  She had a great idea of capturing those first moments on film of us being able to walk with her back into our church and it brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it.  

A couple other things that we will be posting about within the next couple days....  Relay for Life is coming up and Abbey is the "superhero" for our church's team.  We would love for as many of you to be there as possible and are looking forward to celebrating life (and how far we've come with Abbey) that night and remembering those who have lost their battle with cancer.  Jim is going to do that post as he is much better at linking stuff to the post so you will be able to register, or join our team :) right on-line.  The date is June 5th - 6th at Twinsburg High School so please keep those dates open.  It sounds like it's an amazing event and we are very much looking forward to being a part of it.  There is a survivor walk that we will be doing with Abbey. Again, something that brings tears to my eyes and a luminary event at night where some men from our church will be singing.  You won't want to miss this and we would so appreciate your support and love that night for our family and the many others that have been affected by cancer. So be looking for that post as we will have more details coming very soon!!

What's Next?

Abbey is doing beautifully (doesn't she look great?!!)!  Her cheeks haven't been this rosy in seven months and she looks the healthiest she's looked in a long time.  It's an amazing thing to be able to say that! She has been feeling great and has had tons of energy.  Tonight during Jacob's t-ball practice my mom and I took her over to a nearby playground and I think she went down the big slide 30 times.  Her energy level is completely normal right now and there is nothing better than seeing her like this.  

We had a really nice visit with grandmom and grandpop from Philly and it was so nice to have them here!  They got to see one of Jacob's t-ball practices and his last indoor soccer game while here.  Other than those couple of activities, we spent our time at home and outside just hanging out and being together.  Of course Abbey and grandmom did nail painting and Jim, his dad and Jacob had some projects to work on, one being working on Jacob's jeep (it's had some mechanical problems lately).  Mothers Day was so relaxing. Jim and his dad pampered us from morning till night and they made us a delicious dinner.  When I laid in bed that night I didn't even feel tired because I hardly had to do any work the whole day.  It was nice :)

I want to say a HUGE thank you to the mommies from MnM's (our church's mom's group) from Western Reserve Grace!  Today after their monthly meeting, a dear friend Bethany dropped off this amazing, thoughtful, beautiful basket of goodies for me for Mothers Day.  When I tell you our church has been AMAZING to us, it is not an exaggeration.  They have been there since day 1 and continue to love us and walk with us through this.  I was overwhelmed when I read each card and looked at each gift.  There was so much thought and love put into each note and gift so thank you each one of you who put that together for me.  We have been blessed beyond words by so many and I personally have been encouraged by you all more than you'll ever know so thank you for your thoughtfulness.  This was the most special mothers day for me and today was the topper to a wonderful weekend :)  I love you guys!!

So, I wanted to let you know what's next in Abbey's treatment.  We are heading back to the clinic this Thursday for a numbers check for her.  Her numbers need to be recovered to 750 ANC and 75 platelets for them to start with her first maintenance cycle.  She will have 20 months of maintenance.  If her numbers meet the criteria for starting, she will get spinal chemo (methotrexate) in her spine and a dose of vincristine in her port on Friday.  She will be on several medications at home over these next 20 months, with some being 1 day a week, some 5 days a month and some being everyday.  Doesn't sound like much of a break, but she then will have a 3 month break from the spinal chemo and will just get one chemo per month in her port.  

Her numbers will soon start to make a comeback and shouldn't be low for the remainder of her treatment, but right now they are still recovering from the last intense phase.  Since her chemo isn't as intense from here on out, her body will consistently be stronger and less vulnerable to infection.  

She is still getting the two shots a day of lovenox for the blood clot in her brain.  I actually have been giving them at 10:30a.m. and 10:30 p.m. so for the nighttime one she is sleeping.  I was so nervous to do it for the first time at night because I didn't want her to wake up tramatized that I was giving her shots in her sleep, but she hasn't woken up yet since I started doing the one at night.  She is such a deep sleeper and she moves a little once I give it, but doesn't fully wake up.  That has been a wonderful finding for us since she only knows of getting one a day.  The daytime one is going o.k.  Each day is different where sometimes she fights it more and other times she gives in quicker.  We are 6 weeks into them and they said it usually takes 3-6 months for the clot to dissolve.  Please pray that it's closer to the three months because we are ready to be done with them.

Does all that make sense?  I was thinking that it may be a good idea to let you all ask any questions that you may have for us about her treatment.  So, if you have any questions, please feel free to ask them in the comment section.  It all gets a little confusing and overwhelming at times, but one thing I can say for sure is that we are past the worst and although a long road ahead, we are confident that we will make it through the rest :)   

Love to you all :)

Happy Mothers Day

To all my fellow mommies out there....  Happy Mothers Day from one blessed mommy to another!  Hope you had a wonderful day celebrating the mom's in your life, loving on your babies and being pampered by your hubbies!

New Life

Things here have been great.  Abbey continues to feel really good.  We've enjoyed seeing the new life all around us and have spent lots of time outside as spring seems to have officially sprung.

So sorry it has taken me forever to get back on here since my last post.  We have been at the clinic a couple times since I last wrote.  The first was for her blood transfusion, which went well and the second just for a numbers check.  They thought she might need platelets at that visit, but her platelets were on their way up by themselves so we were in and out that day.  She will start maintenance next Friday so we have a break until then. As we get closer to her next phase starting, I will update you on what that will look like for the next 20 months.  

This week we are very much enjoying my in-laws being in town from Philly.  The kids are soaking up every second of them being here and we too our loving our visit with them.  Jim and his dad just went out to get us blizzards from Dairy Queen... they always spoil us when we're together :)

As I said in the last post (or two posts ago), we have some blessings to share with you. Of course a huge blessing right now is the fact that Abbey is done with the worst.  She is 7 months into this and our lives will start to get a little more normal here soon.  We have much to look forward to as we continue moving ahead.  We will not be at the hospital weekly, but monthly and Abbey's little body will not be hit as hard as it has been up to this point.  We soon should be able to take her out more as her immune system will start to be stronger.  Her hair should even start to come back soon :)   

And going along with the "new life" title....  We also wanted to share with you that God has made a new life inside of me.  We're having another baby :)!  I am 14 weeks along and we are all excited about this new baby that will soon be joining our family.  We're thankful for how God continues to help us through this time and also are thankful for the blessings that He's given us along the way! 

Off to eat my blizzard....

Delayed Intensification Complete!!

As of about an hour ago..... we are done with Delayed Intensification!!!!  Can I say that again??  We are DONE D-O-N-E with Delayed Intensification!  Wow, that feels so good!!  Abbey just took her last oral chemo tonight for this phase and she is now on a two week break from chemo.  

She is feeling good and today we even went out for the day as a family to some outdoor outlets.  There is a pond with birds there so the kids loved feeding the birds (actually Jacob and Abbey loved feeding the birds.... Micah wasn't willing to share his piece of bread with them so he enjoyed watching the birds while snacking :).    

Monday was fine at the clinic.  They were pretty positive when we were there last Thursday that she would need a blood transfusion by Monday, but she was just above the number that they would give a transfusion.  So, we have to go back tomorrow and they said they are confident that she will need blood by tomorrow.  She has been feeling great though.  Better than she's felt in a long time.  Her numbers were all pretty low as of Monday though and they expect them to continue to drop now as she got some pretty tough stuff during this phase and the medication usually takes 7-10 days to fully take it's effect on her body.

We are so thankful though that we can check this phase off.  The first week of this phase was filled with many tears (and on and off since we started it), and I can't tell you how many times I said to Jim that I wish we could just fast forward to the end.  So the fact that we're here is a huge burden off our shoulders.  Although we still have a long road of treatments ahead, we can now officially say that the worst is behind us!  As always, thanks for praying and for being our cheerleaders through all of this!  And to follow up from the last post.... here is the first huge blessing.....done with Delayed Intensification!!... more to come soon :)     

Almost There!... and some beautiful jewelry!!

Tomorrow (Sunday) is the very last day that Abbey will get ARA-C (the chemo that she is getting right now for 4 days in a row) and we are so excited to almost be done with it! We decided for her needle in her port to be left in on Thursday instead of doing the shots and so far everyday has gone smoothly with her getting her chemo here at home by the home health care nurse.  She will be on an oral chemo until Wednesday and then we will be done with Delayed Intensification!!  We are counting down the days (actually more like the hours) and we are so ready to be done with this intense stuff and to get into maintenance.

Abbey has been feeling much better this week then she did last week and has been handling the ARA-C much better this time around.  We're not sure why that is, but whatever the reason, we are happy.  We think the beautiful weather that we've had here the last couple days has definitely helped.  We have been outside from sun up to sun down (except coming in for potty breaks and meals (and chemo...) on these nice days and it has been a breath of fresh air for all of us... literally!  Abbey has been keeping up with her brothers and you'd never even know she's sick these last few days, let alone in the last intense part of this phase with chemo everyday.  Each day that the nurse has been here, she comes in, sits with her shirt up for her chemo, and then five minutes later, she's ready to get back out and play.  It has been amazing.

On Monday we will go back to the clinic for Abbey's blood to be checked.  Her red blood cells were low on Thursday and they are pretty sure she will need a blood transfusion by Monday since her numbers are still on their way down from all this intense stuff that she's been getting.  We are going Monday, prepared to be there all day (the transfusion alone usually takes about 4 hours) and then when it's done they will take her needle out and homebound we will be with only 2 days left of the phase.  

Last night we went to a park near our house and we walked and talked about almost being done with the worst.  We were talking about how we are going to celebrate on Thursday when Delayed Intensification is complete and Jim and I both agreed that we will start with taking a deep breath!  God is so good and I can't even believe that we've made it this far.  Not by our own strength.... we are so weak without Him, but His strength has filled us in our weakness and has carried us to this point.  

Isn't this necklace beautiful??!!  My dear friend Kendra called me today and asked if she could drop something off this evening.  She came with tears in her eyes (I had tears in mine too!) and this beautiful gift to me (thank you so much Kendra!!).  The picture on the necklace is of me kissing Abbey's head and we are both wearing hats with orange ribbons on them.  It was taken right around Christmas (it was one of the pictures on our Christmas card and she used the picture off there to surprise me) and it is very special to me.  On the back is a picture of our whole family, which I love so much too.  I love, love, love it and will treasure it for the rest of my life!

I also wanted to mention two other very special pieces of jewelry that were given to us since Abbey was diagnosed.  A friend of mine from college that has been an amazing support to us as we've gone through this (thanks Laurel!!) sent Abbey and I these matching "Hope Bracelets" and they are so special to us.  Abbey has a tiny, little wrist and it fits her just perfectly and it's so precious on her. We love wearing them and matching!  When she's grown we will be able to look back at her bracelet in amazement as to what a little peanut she was when she went through all this.  And maybe someday I will be able to give Abbey mine to wear and her daughter can wear her little one.      

The other piece of jewelry is Abbey's "Journey Necklace."  My very close friend Marcie (thanks Marcie!!) thought of this great idea of a charm necklace and putting a new charm on it each time we have a milestone through her treatment.  We have a journal to write down specifics about each charm so we will forever be able to remember each thing that she overcame.  In the picture you can see a few of the charms that we've added so far.  Isn't that a great idea?!  It hangs in Abbey's room and is a constant reminder of all the obstacles that she's made it past :)!

We have been blessed in so many ways... people praying like crazy for Abbey and us, meals, house cleaning, gift cards for gas, groceries, toys and date nights for Jim and I (someday we will go on some of those :), help with our kids, cards, notes and poster boards of encouragement, comments on our blogs, e-mails, beautiful handmade hats, people shaving their heads to support Abbey, gifts to Abbey, "Praying for Abbey" bracelets, gifts to us, Abbey's bedroom makeover,... to name a few.... we have been loved on in so many ways and we will never forget the outpouring of love that you've shown us through these last 6 (almost 7) months.  I know I can't mention every one on here, but each one has been like a huge hug to us and we are overwhelmed and thankful!!  And we pray for God's blessings to pour out on you as they have on us through you all.  Thank You!!    

I will keep you posted on how Monday goes and I will be sure to tell you when we are completely done with this phase :).  We also have some fun things to share with you next week and we are excited to celebrate some other blessings and gifts that God has given us with you all then (yes even more blessings on top of all that! :).  

Home

We are home and we are happy!  We got home yesterday afternoon.  These last couple weeks have been crazy and exhausting, haven't they?!  

So first, how is Abbey doing?  She is doing better today.  She has been more active today and is eating a little better.  Her appetite has been pretty non-existent since Friday, but today it seems a little better.  She hasn't complained of a headache all day and the nausea is gone.  She has been loving on Micah since we got home and her and Jacob have jumped right back into being best buds.  

We really think that ARA-C chemo that she had to get four days in a row last week (and will also get 4 more days starting this Thursday) is what makes her sick to her stomach and not want to eat.  It is so nice to have her needle out (she had it in from Thursday through Monday) and to give her body this few day break from that ARA-C.  I gave her a really good bath yesterday when we got home and plan to give her one everyday until she has to get accessed again.

I don't think we told you all the drama that we had last week with her being accessed at home and the home health care nurses coming to our house, but she had to be accessed three days in a row (which means they had to keep putting a big needle in her chest) and it wasn't fun.  She does way better then me and sits still and doesn't get too upset, but it was really frustrating b/c the whole point of leaving her accessed for four days is so the nurse could just come to our house each day, give her the chemo and then leave with no poking or pain.  Well, for some reason we had two 'faulty' needles in a row and each day they had to re-access her.  We are throwing around the possibility of having this next round of ARA-C given by shot, but are not sure which will be easier for her.  She will either need to have her needle in again for 4 days in a row and I will be stressed each time the nurse comes here or she will get a quick poke and then it will be over with, but that too would be four days in a row.  We are going to talk more with our nurse practitioner about it later today by phone to weigh our options.  I think we would do the shot for sure if she wasn't already getting poked twice a day from her lovenox for the blood clot.  Three shots a day will be a lot, but that needle in when we're home is no fun either... we'll see.

And how are we doing?  When Abbey bounces back quickly, so do we.  Our minds have been put to ease as far as her headaches.  It was great news yesterday when the doctors told us that the blood flow around the clot is better (they weren't expecting that this soon) so for that we are truly thankful.  Also, the eye doctor saw some swelling in her eyes when they first found the clot and after her exam on Sunday, they no longer see the swelling so that is a huge praise!

I asked Abbey if she was feeling better today and she spread her arms out wide and said "I'm feeling this much better mommy."  My eyes filled with tears as I was reminded of how amazing this kid is.  She goes through so much, yet she keeps bouncing back.  

One week from today we will be completely done with Delayed Intensification!  We are so excited for this phase to be almost over and for maintenance to be right around the corner.  We can't wait for her to consistently be feeling good and for her to stop getting hit so hard with all these tough medications.  We are almost there!

Thanks again to you all!  As always, your encouragement and prayers are a huge blessing to us!

Update

Just a quick update here. Abbey is doing well. Her headache is gone and she underwent the MRI last night. The resident radiologist said that he felt that the clot actually looked smaller than it was originally. Shelley said that the doctors this morning weren't sure if it was smaller, but they did say that the blood flow around the clot is better and that means the shots are doing their job.
The doctors feel that the headache was a result of the spinal tap that Abbey had on Thursday. They don't think it was a result of the clot. So, we are relieved and praising God for this good news. Shelley and Abbey are coming come some time today. Thank you all for your kind words and continued prayers. You are all a blessing to us.

Jim

Back to the Hospital

This is Jim again.  Abbey is back in the hospital for some further testing today.  She actually was in the hospital yesterday for about 6 hours.  There was a problem with the needle accessing her port, and this in turn caused a clot in her port.  A dose of TPA, anti-clotting agent, was able to break up the clot and allow her to receive her dose of chemo.  Shelley and Abbey didn't get home till about midnight.  

This morning, when Abbey woke up she did not feel well at all.  I was at work and Shelley called me and said that Abbey was complaining of a headache and that her belly hurt.  The nausea is a common side effect from the chemo, but the headaches were concerning since we've recently found out about the clot in her head.  So, Shelley called the doctor and he said that we should take Abbey to Rainbow to have some further testing on her head, in order to see if the clot had moved.  

So, Shelley and her mom took Abbey to the hospital while I stayed home with Jake and Micah.  Shelley called me a little while ago and said that Abbey underwent and MRI.  Still no word on the results, but I will update you when I get an update.  Please pray that we would trust our merciful God with this continuing battle with these headaches.  Abbey only has 12 days left in this phase and it's difficult to see that the end of this phase is soooo close and we continue to hit bumps in the road.  We know that our loving God will continue to sustain Abbey through this phase... please continue to lift her up in prayer for that continued strength and mercy from our Lord.  Please pray that our minds would be protected from the evil one as it's so easy to have your mind wander.  Thanks.

Jim

Jacob, Abbey & Micah on Easter

Quick update on things here...

Our week since we've been home from the hospital has been wonderful.  Abbey has been feeling great and we've been enjoying her feeling good and things being pretty normal around here.  

The shots have been going as good as can be expected.  She is definitely getting more used to them and looks forward to picking out a special band-aid after each poke.  Jim went to the store a few days ago and bought every kind of girl band-aid that they make so that has been a little bit of a distraction for her to the actual shot.  Jacob has been helping her through each shot by sitting in front of her and breathing out with her while she gets it.  She's been so tough and seeing that she is doing o.k. with them is helping me be a little more o.k. with giving them to her.

Tomorrow we are heading back to the clinic for the next part of this phase to begin.  We have to be there at 8:30a.m. for her to get IV fluids for a couple hours before getting a chemo that can be hard on her bladder.  She then has her spinal chemo at 12 (she can't eat until this is over b/c of sedation) and then we will go back to the clinic for her to get more IV fluids to flush the chemo through her bladder.  They told us not to expect to leave until around 5p.m. so it will be a long day.  She also will get a new chemo called Ara-C starting tomorrow and will get it for 4 days in a row.  Her needle will stay in and a nurse will come to our house everyday through Sunday to give it to her and then her needle will come out on Sunday.  That will be hard b/c she doesn't like the needle staying in and often complains that it itches and just bothers her.  She then will have a break until next Thursday and then again will have the 4 day chemo again and will need to have her needle in the whole time.  

We have two rough weeks ahead, but we know we will make it.  We look forward to starting tomorrow so we can get it over with.  I will try to update more as we go through the rest of this phase.

Thanks for checking in on Abbey and please pray for her to handle the rest of this phase with no problems.  Please pray that the needle wouldn't bug her and that she wouldn't be sick from these new chemos that she's getting.    

   

Home :)

That's right.... We're home!!  We actually got home Thursday and it has been so wonderful to be out of the hospital.  When I told Abbey that morning that we were going to get to go home, she quickly helped me pack up our room.  She couldn't put our things in our bags fast enough and she was all smiles and hugs as we waited for daddy to come get us.

Wednesday night the doctors had to make their decision about whether or not to start the second half of this phase on Thursday, or to wait one more week before continuing on.  The doctors were split on whether to start or wait another week (stressful!), but at times like these we need to trust our doctors and remind ourselves that God truly is in control of this situation .  We were really feeling like we wanted her body to have one more week to recover.  Especially after how very sick she was just a few days earlier.  So on Wed. night they decided to wait and we felt very comfortable with that.  As much as we want to get into maintenance, we even more want her body to be strong enough to get through the rest of this phase with no issues and for her to be feeling good for a while.  On Thurs. morning her ANC was 720 anyways, so her body naturally was telling us she wasn't ready to start (it needs to be 750) so that was confirmation from God that they made the right choice. 

Our last two days in the hospital were pretty uneventful, which is always so wonderful!  It was even more refreshing after the absolutely crazy week that we had.  We went in to the hospital with our Abbey having one major health issue (leukemia) and now came home with two major health issues (blood clot in brain), so our emotions have been on a roller coaster to say the least.  We continue to be confident though that we too will get through this.

The very hardest part about this new finding is these horrible shots that I have to give her.  She has been getting them since they first found the clot, but I have been giving them to her since Thursday.  It is hard to say the least and each time it breaks my heart.  She asks me please not to give it to her and then keeps saying she's not ready.  I am so nervous doing it still so it is very new and stressful for all of us.  Once the shot is over she quickly settles down, but the anticipation for the minute or two before is the hardest.  As an adult, I hate getting a shot so for this poor baby to have to get them twice a day is sad.  Our doctor told us that when the medicine goes in, it burns.  She has little bruises on her arms and legs where she's gotten them already, which is normal because it's a blood thinner.  The thought of her having to get them for six months is overwhelming and at this point we are just taking it one day at a time.  We are praying hard that this clot would go away MUCH faster than normal so these can stop sooner. 

Yesterday at lunch we had a really good talk with Abbey (and Jacob) about the shots and the little thing in her head that has been causing headaches and her eye's to hurt.  We talked about how the shots are making that go away so she can be healthy.  We've had these talks several times before about her chemo and port and all the medications that she's on and she amazes us as she listens intently.  She trusts us and finds her comfort in us so it helps her to understand and accept all that she has to go through.  We know with time she will get used to these (and maybe I will too??) so we just need to keep taking this day by day and trusting that God will get us through this new trial set before us.  

Our last couple days home have been wonderful.  We have enjoyed every second of being out of the hospital and all together again.  Yesterday we colored Easter Eggs and today we did an egg hunt around our house with our kids and my sister's kids, Gracie and Joey.  They had a blast and we had just as much fun watching them!  We then spent some time playing outside and we are so happy that Abbey is feeling better and has been able to do normal things with the rest of the kids.  

We hope you all have a wonderful Easter as we celebrate the resurrection of our Savior.  We are so thankful for His sacrifice for us and are even more thankful that He did not stay in the grave, but that He is alive.  We pray that as you reflect on that this weekend, that you would know how very much He loves you.  Happy Easter and God bless.

Love, The Colberts