Tomorrow is supposed to end our break. We will be heading to the clinic bright and early to check Abbey's blood counts and to see if her body is ready to begin this next phase. She has a cold as of yesterday so depending on how she is feeling/doing tomorrow will also depend if we will move forward or wait a week. She has a runny nose, is congested and has a little bit of a cough... ugh!!! This is probably the worst time she could get a cold, but there is nothing we can do about it and have to just trust that our doctors will make the right decision tomorrow in whether she should start this phase, or wait until her body is better. The main reason they might wait is because she has to get sedated on day 1 of this phase (tomorrow) for her spinal chemo and they may not sedate her while she's congested.
This week has been tough. It has been hard to keep the tears back as we think about what is to come. Tomorrow will be hard either way because in a way we just want to start it so we can get it over with. She is scheduled to get three doses of chemo tomorrow and also should start the steroids tomorrow night. We need to continually give her back to God. Like this whole situation, it is out of our hands and we need to constantly remind ourselves that He is in control and there is no better place to be than being carried by Him.
Please pray for wisdom for our doctors, that they will make the right choice in what to do considering her cold and pray for us all to have a peace no matter what happens. Pray that her body would handle this phase better than expected and for strength for us. I feel weak in so many ways right now and just want to fast forward two months so we can get into maintenance. We know we will get there and are we are relying fully on our God to help us stay strong for our baby. Thank you for your continued support. We will keep you posted on what happens tomorrow.
The new song I put on the blog is one of my favorites. It never fails, every time I hear it I cry. I love to listen to it around Easter, but wanted to put it on here now as our hope is in Christ alone as we go through this. He is our strength as we continue forward and oh how glad we are that we know Him!